i have a venusian saturn and martial jupiter and everything you said up to that point hit so good. when you asked the questions what would they look like, i felt the feeling of looking in a mirror and seeing someone who's not me. and that begs the question, who do i think i am? and why do i think im someone else? i've struggled with recognizing who i am for a long time, and still am. the eclipse is in my 11h, not conjunct but in the same house as my domicile mars. i keep going over the idea that what i do defines who i am. i want to question it, to see it's configuration and decide if the belief is right for me, but my will only goes so far when i don't see any other ways. am i content, or comfortable? do i do good, or do i think i do good so i get to skip reflection? reflection always leases to question, for me. and they don't usually get answered. some say im my own worst enemy, but if i don't feel held accountable im the one who must do it, right? (what a weird ramble, thank u)
i have a venusian saturn and martial jupiter and everything you said up to that point hit so good. when you asked the questions what would they look like, i felt the feeling of looking in a mirror and seeing someone who's not me. and that begs the question, who do i think i am? and why do i think im someone else? i've struggled with recognizing who i am for a long time, and still am. the eclipse is in my 11h, not conjunct but in the same house as my domicile mars. i keep going over the idea that what i do defines who i am. i want to question it, to see it's configuration and decide if the belief is right for me, but my will only goes so far when i don't see any other ways. am i content, or comfortable? do i do good, or do i think i do good so i get to skip reflection? reflection always leases to question, for me. and they don't usually get answered. some say im my own worst enemy, but if i don't feel held accountable im the one who must do it, right? (what a weird ramble, thank u)