i have a venusian saturn and martial jupiter and everything you said up to that point hit so good. when you asked the questions what would they look like, i felt the feeling of looking in a mirror and seeing someone who's not me. and that begs the question, who do i think i am? and why do i think im someone else? i've struggled with recognizing who i am for a long time, and still am. the eclipse is in my 11h, not conjunct but in the same house as my domicile mars. i keep going over the idea that what i do defines who i am. i want to question it, to see it's configuration and decide if the belief is right for me, but my will only goes so far when i don't see any other ways. am i content, or comfortable? do i do good, or do i think i do good so i get to skip reflection? reflection always leases to question, for me. and they don't usually get answered. some say im my own worst enemy, but if i don't feel held accountable im the one who must do it, right? (what a weird ramble, thank u)
thank you for sharing <3 it takes a while to see ourselves truly reflected in the potential of our chart. but, as the astrology is the study of time, we have our whole lives to manifest its natal promise. I think these are potent questions to be asking while also knowing we will never get to some "core" of who we are but are constantly remaking what that means. Know that your ability to recognize what a martial jupiter can look like, even if you don't see it reflected in yourself yet, shows that you are on the path to becoming it. Trust yourself and keep questioning <3
i have a venusian saturn and martial jupiter and everything you said up to that point hit so good. when you asked the questions what would they look like, i felt the feeling of looking in a mirror and seeing someone who's not me. and that begs the question, who do i think i am? and why do i think im someone else? i've struggled with recognizing who i am for a long time, and still am. the eclipse is in my 11h, not conjunct but in the same house as my domicile mars. i keep going over the idea that what i do defines who i am. i want to question it, to see it's configuration and decide if the belief is right for me, but my will only goes so far when i don't see any other ways. am i content, or comfortable? do i do good, or do i think i do good so i get to skip reflection? reflection always leases to question, for me. and they don't usually get answered. some say im my own worst enemy, but if i don't feel held accountable im the one who must do it, right? (what a weird ramble, thank u)
thank you for sharing <3 it takes a while to see ourselves truly reflected in the potential of our chart. but, as the astrology is the study of time, we have our whole lives to manifest its natal promise. I think these are potent questions to be asking while also knowing we will never get to some "core" of who we are but are constantly remaking what that means. Know that your ability to recognize what a martial jupiter can look like, even if you don't see it reflected in yourself yet, shows that you are on the path to becoming it. Trust yourself and keep questioning <3